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The urges strike
I clutch my wrist
It is becoming
So hard to resist
Make it stop
Please stop the pain
Or else I'm afraid
I may go insane
This agony I feel
It just won't stop
Will it ever end?
Or will it not?
I cannot relax
I cannot sleep
The urge is so strong
The darkness so deep
My body is tense
My muscles are tight
Please someone help me
Continue to fight
But this is my problem
I'll do it alone
I need to fight it
All on my own
I want to cry
I want to scream
I want this all
To be just a dream
"Don't think about it
Empty your mind
Block out the pain
Then you'll be fine"
These are my thoughts
When the urges strike
Distract myself with something
Then I'll be alright
I need to fade away
I need to go and hide
I need to find another world
To immerse myself inside
If I disappear from here
It will stop the pain
Until the next attack
Then it will start again.
I clutch my wrist
It is becoming
So hard to resist
Make it stop
Please stop the pain
Or else I'm afraid
I may go insane
This agony I feel
It just won't stop
Will it ever end?
Or will it not?
I cannot relax
I cannot sleep
The urge is so strong
The darkness so deep
My body is tense
My muscles are tight
Please someone help me
Continue to fight
But this is my problem
I'll do it alone
I need to fight it
All on my own
I want to cry
I want to scream
I want this all
To be just a dream
"Don't think about it
Empty your mind
Block out the pain
Then you'll be fine"
These are my thoughts
When the urges strike
Distract myself with something
Then I'll be alright
I need to fade away
I need to go and hide
I need to find another world
To immerse myself inside
If I disappear from here
It will stop the pain
Until the next attack
Then it will start again.
Something happened with work yesterday that really upset me. Last night, the urge to SI struck hard. I distracted myself for awhile with YouTube videos, AMVs, TV shows... It worked. Then I got into bed and they struck again. It was hard, but I was finally able to immerse myself in music and then relax and go to sleep. It's been awhile since it was that bad. Hopefully it won't be that bad again, at least for awhile. I don't think I could stand having urges that bad back to back. I might just break down and do it. I didn't this time, but who's to say I won't next time? It's really hard sometimes, but I can't go back to SI. I just can't! But I cannot promise that I won't. I don't want to make promises I may not be able to keep.
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i havent told anyone today so because of ur poem ill tell u
without thinking twice i took something nice and sharp and instead of throwing it out i saved it thinking itll be easier to cut next time with this than using a razor
without thinking twice i took something nice and sharp and instead of throwing it out i saved it thinking itll be easier to cut next time with this than using a razor