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I punished myself today
Because I needed to
The guilt was eating at me
I didn't know what else to do
You say I don't deserve it
But we both know that's not true
The reason is very clear
I deserve it 'cause I hurt you
Even though I'm scared
To let this friendship end
You're better off this way
I don't deserve to be your friend
So you better run away
Before I change my mind
Run away and leave me
Just leave me behind
Your life will be much better
So you better do it now
I won't blame you for it
That is my solemn vow.
Because I needed to
The guilt was eating at me
I didn't know what else to do
You say I don't deserve it
But we both know that's not true
The reason is very clear
I deserve it 'cause I hurt you
Even though I'm scared
To let this friendship end
You're better off this way
I don't deserve to be your friend
So you better run away
Before I change my mind
Run away and leave me
Just leave me behind
Your life will be much better
So you better do it now
I won't blame you for it
That is my solemn vow.
Literature
The cuts
Human error.
Five more cuts.
They won't show, and they will fade.
It's nothing. It's nothing.
It makes me feel normal.
I need punishment for every time I mess up.
Don't worry I won't die.
"I wish she would keep better track of things" one more cut.
"She is a freak" two more cuts.
"You don't care about anything do you?!" three cuts.
Some say it hurt.
Some say it's nothing.
Sure I thought I could talk to her about it, but now my only true friend is drifting.
She knew every thing about me, cutting, crying, depression, and so on. But, as I see her go.
Now we just say simple Hello's.
It's time she stopped dealing with me.
Literature
Feeling Painful Assumptions
I came to a conclusion, as you hide under an umbrella in the rain,
However your assumptions of me is wrong, despite the logic slain,
Cars collide; I stare at the impact,
I don't feel the pain, for I stand intact?
I notice the distance between a father and his sons' hand,
I don't feel the pain, for I still stand?
A mother runs towards her struggling kid in the water,
I don't feel the pain, for I have no son or daughter?
An aged figure breathes slowly as he choose to hide,
I don't feel the pain, for I still have time on my side?
A child discovers Santa is a lie,
I don't feel the pain, for with innocence I waved goodbye?
A person rea
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Don't
Don't tell me to get over it
As though that took so little wit
Contempt in your rolling eyes
Primacy poorly disguised
Don't order me to suck it up
For I drink from a bitter cup
You ask why I can't just 'move on'
But all my forward thrust is gone
Don't say that it's just a phase,
I still can't see past this maze.
The little fissure those eyes see
A chasm meant to swallow me
Don't claim that you can empathize
It reeks of haughtiness and lies
And all your pretty banal words
Swirl around like feral birds
You seem sure that their pecking
Makes my mind so much tougher
But that which doesn't kill
Will only make me suffer
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The way I've been feeling for the past week...actually it's been longer than that, but especially for the past week..
Warning: Very slight hint towards self-injury
Warning: Very slight hint towards self-injury
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Lovely job on the poem. Conveys your feelings remarkably well. Well done (: